I Vote For Darkness

darknessThere were moments I can’t clearly grasp till this very day. Everything those stain as memories are evaporating slowly but certainly. Even for the most solid ones, they were being covered in some dark dust and mist.

Yes, I was one try to recall all those moment to present time, let them become clear one more time even in my mortal memory. It has been aged when I met that one, I was still playing with dust, grass and water on the unused rice fields with my other pals. I can’t remember how could I trapped for a while in that place, I guess it was on the far far away village (I mean very far from my usual childhood playground).

I was helping my pals flying some kites on a drying rice field. The weather was perfect so we could easily make all the kites danced on the sky. We were having a good time with some mangos ready to serve. Some kids seemed to be the local came after us, they had a plastic ball with them, certainly they would like to play soccer since the sun was about to set in a couple hours.

Fortunately, they invited us to play along, well…, nothing we can done because the we have done with the mangos and the kites already touched the white clouds – the cirrus. We played with a mixed man in both teams, so there would be no hesitation to get some bump or lump.

After some half and quarter hours, I got tired and took a rest beside a small irrigation canal, hmmm… the grass felt so soft. No longer than after me, more kids had take their break time (okay… I’m never get the cool part on any sport). Beside me, one stranger…, ups…, I mean one of the local kid took his seat on the grass.

Ah…, what a play….” He talked while seemed to be gazing through the reddish sky.

Pardon me…?” I was curious if he talked to me unintentionally.

He surprised and turned to me, “Oh…, no…, no…, I just glad to have a wonderful moment.”

Yes, me too, it was a great moment.” I felt the same way for sure, what can I say more when we are kids have playing together on a playground even on a new place.

It was…?

Yes…?

You said ‘it was a great moment’…, that ‘it was.”

I see…, is there a matter…?

He laughed and said, “No…, nothing matter, you were right, it was. And how about this moment, it is wonderful too or it isn’t?

It is wonderful.” I captured just moment to let my self knowing what I said, “what we are talking about?

This moment, this very moment is a happy moment right?” He again gazed onto the sky. “I and so maybe you already have so much of this kind of moments till this day, it shall not last forever. This moment are like our lights of happiness, lot… lot of lights, comes and goes, do you this these light a real ones?

It never last forever, yes since I do not know what a future is. But I can not reach what you mean by the real one?

He smiled upon me, “Life so similar like a game or a drama, where we can play and become an actor. People love the moment where a drama turn into happy moment, and sad when a terrible scenario could not avoid upon them. So do I, love such a moment just like this one, I can fell the touch of the wind, the sound of water which flows in the canal behind us, the warmth of the sun, the voices of nature, this feeling is so unexplainable. But I know some how, I fall in love with this moment, or I may say that I afraid to lost it…

Right I get it, just go on…” Once he looked at me if I were listening those words.

These lights just like a shadows that change and gone when other lights exist, or in otherwise they just gone without the other lights. My sister ever told me that there was a true light, which I do not need to search it everywhere, the light that shall not disappear when another lights exist nor a shadow that disappear without another light. People sometimes mixed it with myth and legend, and call it the eternal heaven.”

Wow…, wait…, wait…, wait…, all those words now become so hard to swallow. Why that become so complicated. Maybe rhetorically yes. But how can a light exist without darkness?”

Hmmm…, you talk deeply through it. One can’t know the light without knowing what is darkness, nor one could understand light without touching the darkness, if they are only names then they would never exist at all, the true learning is the very understanding itself.”

“…” I was in silence, I was not quite sure getting along.

For a while we let our view flow with nature. The Western horizon’s red color became darker than before. Some kids still on play ground for the second time.

A soft voice calling from behind us, the boy beside me turn his face.

Sister…?!” He surprised by himself.

For a moment I was trapped on de’ javu like time.

I now understand a little bit Sis, when we understand if both of the darkness and the light are one and the become nothing at all.”

That beautiful girl smile upon him, “That’s good, but only understanding it logically will give no help. Now you should move on the practically my dear.”

Then I need to understand the darkness itself to the very root.” He said back to his sister, just like on a election, one would said, “I vote for darkness”.

She then turned his eyes on me, “Nice to meet you again here young one, thanks for whispering my little brother.” Her smile was like a petrified charm. “Now the sun will set soon, we must return home. I get a feeling we will met again someday, just like we used to be now.” Then they said good bye.

I though my self under the petrified charm. I just can not understand what was happening that time, nor got any meaning of it. “Why she seems to know me…?” My mind kept asking that simple question. Wait…, wasn’t she the mysterious girl from back there? I was remembering another moment in my life, which the stories I already told on “The Half Winged Butterfly”. Then what was she mean by “met again?”.

On the way home after a sunset, my pals asked me if I were okay.

Why…?” I asked them.

Nothing, just some of us noticed that you seemed talking by yourself back there.”

Ah…, I’m fine… don’t worry.”

On my mind I would yelled, “Oh no…! Its happening again!”

Quote of the day:
I hate television. I hate it as much as I hate peanuts. But I can’t stop eating peanuts. – Orson Welles

  • http://tobytall.wordpress.com titut

    *merinding*

    have you ever met this girl before?
    do you believe in soulmate? *i do*

    how’s your day? i’m improving, and you?

    :)
    .-= titut´s last blog ..POWER =-.

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    eh? monkey attack? hiiii ngeri amat? dari mana datangnya? rabies ga tuh?

    closed door? wait! wait!
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    I got the key! Should I give to somebody? I can post it today ==> so she can open the closed door hehe *she? rite?*
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    Oooh..

    knock knock…
    “POOOOOSSSSSSSSSSTTTTMAN!”

    “hello sir, good morning. please sign here – a parcell from a friend”

    ===signed by cahya===

    “well, sir. thank you. enjoy your blanket and heater – you can open your door now to enjoy the breeze from outside. Good day!”
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    sure, it is….

    *btw wordpress introduces new software, assisting to find home address from blog address. have tried?*
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    wooohooooooo!!!!!!!!!! :)

    :handcuffs: on :heart:

    no, that person won’t lose you!

    — we are waiting for the right moment. everything has its own time, no? —-

    ps. aku barusan dapat tempat dimana bisa beli pisang kepok, dong hehe
    my daughter is eating fried pisang kepok (sama plek plek plek dg yg di indonesia)
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    :)

    mine is navy blue

    i :heart: :rain: and :thunder: but i prefer ….. *hmmmm ga ada iconnya niiii*

    i prefer a good quality rain coat, and two free hands.
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    Well, I prefer soft :rain: under the :rainbow: its more romantic :kissing:

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    hahahahahahahaha

    we are still having soft rain here…
    it’s good. i love being dripping wet.
    i love the smell of the :rain:
    i love the sound of the :thunder:
    i love to see the :rainbow:
    it is like :musicnote:
    *hujan, jangan berhenti ya*
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    mmhh
    u r a :doctor: , arent you?
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    mmmhh

    you will become a zombie or :ghost: or :skeleton: or :alien: or another inhuman creatures – if you keep waking

    ck ck ck ck ck ga ngantuk?

    i think i eat to much meat (that UK guy brought me lots of meats) – now i am having soar stomach
    .-= Titut´s last blog ..IGNORANCE =-.

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    Mbak Titut,

    That’s the wholeness of a blured memory. I can’t recall them in a clear vision. So I can’t be sure :clover:

    Ah…, a soulmate? Well…, I find a hard time to definite the word. Acording to Wikipedia Soulmate is…

    Soulmate is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality, and/or compatibility. A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – which is thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one’s soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join. However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations.

    My natural maybe a lover, if someone care me enough, I’ll give my care in the equal manner.

    But to find such as mysterious and powerful bond between a couple souls? I think there would be no chance, at least not for all people. Moreover, for now, I’m a closed door . I used to be alone long time ago, it just another starting in this life where I would be happily to take my journey by my self only.

    Well, this morning I little bit get a nervous situation. There was an accident with domesticated monkey in my dormitary, he attacked the owner and making a serious injury with much bleeding. What a shock.

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    It is a domesticated monkey not a wild one :monkey: = peliharaan sejak kecil

    Hmm…, why need a key? I only said it is a closed door, not a locked door :-D

    Because the weather seems very cold, so I closed the door ;-)

  • http://www.tobytall.wordpress.com Titut

    knock.. knock…

    is anybody there????
    room service for blanket… :)

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    Yes, a :monkey2: inside :laugh:

    Thanks, I never imagine that there would be a room service for private villa, he he :)

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    Ah…, it must be from a good friend, so could reach a moving door which has no address :-)
    .-= Cahya´s last blog ..Whispering Rain On Yogyakarta =-.

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    No, I’m not aware if something like that exist (he he, clueless). I’m using wordpress.org (engine only), not wordpress.com (engine +hosting).

    For my dormitory address, I put it online via kontak on my webpage. As how Mbak Titut also could find on my footnote in Bahasa Indonesia (see a post entitled with Wisma Cahaya Rembulan).

    And I would made easy everyone to get touch in my just by tracking my current location via satellite/GPS as I mentioned on Track Me on the Globe just in case “someone” would lost me, he he :rotfl:
    .-= Cahya´s last blog ..Whispering Rain On Yogyakarta =-.

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    I won’t say it like that. I’m not the best choice for anyone. I never hold strong something, I chose the everything on their nature, let it be a freedom for all of us, so we can chose our own path of life.

    I won’t say it like that. Because in so much stories, one story tell me that I ever lost an angel before.

    Make my :heart: becomes :cloudy: and then :rain: , I miss my broken :umbrella:

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    Just don’t get sick after spending minutes under the :rain: :-D

    otherwise you maybe need to :phone: a :doctor:
    .-= Cahya´s last blog ..Whispering Rain On Yogyakarta =-.

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    No, just not yet. I’m merely a :zombiekiller: :-D for now.
    .-= Cahya´s last blog ..Whispering Rain On Yogyakarta =-.

  • http://www.legawa.com/blog Cahya

    You should share the coockings, seem delicious :-P