I don’t know how long it has been. Tiredness covers my every single noon. Even life connected each other, we surely don’t ever feel much of it.
Then human start to take only his own burden, and I said to myself, we just forget what we used to be, or perhaps, we just never be as we imagined it to be.
Yes, today as always for each passing year is the day of you and me. Perhaps you already walk beyond the heaven, while I keep walking under the same sky that we shared before that time came. I shall not call your name, nor shall you should call mine – since that is one of those promises.
Each year I wrote just for our promises, that perhaps my mortal mind & memory shall forget your voices or how your smile were gentling my heart; but my existence is a single prove that you was here, stand by my side – walk a single voice together. Continue reading
Its a little bit a while since I signed my last secret operation last year – The Moonarch! So, here me again, assigned to a new secret operation, which mean I’ve to leave Bhyllabus for the time being. I do not sure how long this operation would take me away from the cyber world, perhaps for a couple of months or more.
I can’t do blog-walking, neither writing here for next couple months. Well, I am neither sure I would able returning here. If you find this site inaccessible in near future, it means I forgot to pay the bill for this domain, ups…, well, lets not worry about that (I won’t stop you to pay it for me if you mind it).
How should I put every single of my careless act into some snowy poetry, or the spring would surely ended those masks this year. I haven’t met my expectation much this weeks, and I think again I have put so much pressure upon my own self already. What a wasted sigh.
Recently, mirroring my own time at the dusk, I saw some peculiar moment with interesting rhythm which I can not say why or how they seemingly bound to my very fate.
Suddenly there is something stroke sharp within my chest this morning. I think I have some of precious moments from the past were flashing rapidly within my mind. I don’t understand, I think I’ve take a good care of my medication lately – but surely its not about physical matters – my heart beats rapidly moment to moment as their past flashed quickly.
I need to hold myself, more than that, I need to hold my tears. I’d like to leave Bhyllabus for some moments, at least I wish it only for a moment.
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