Merry Christmas 2010

Last year, there was someone special who shared a Christmas moment with me. We have so much dreams – our dreams I would say for that very blissful moment. I think, if there is something called as happiness – it has to be that very moment we spend together. Then I found time created different story to tell – she is no longer by my side.

When all dreams shattered in instant, you will have nothing left behind but a simple fact that … you have to walk just by yourself. I know, she wouldn’t be here again even when I need her most. I know how she loves Christmas so much, she used to has a beautiful smile when talking and listening songs about Christmas, and I don’t know how those smiles uniquely encouraged me in many untellable ways, letting go my loneliness and let a warm togetherness enters my heart.

Since she’s no longer in the world where I still stand & breath freely, I don’t know whether she would smile or not in this Christmas. But – yes I know – she would smile like she used to be, bring warm and happiness to every soul who see it. And it would bring peace upon me.

Well, its Christmas now. Miracles and peace should be all around. Don’t worry there is no way you can’t get any, just open your heart – it should be there, right in front of your heart’s door. What would do in Christmas? For me, maybe I would like to listen one of my Christmas favourite song, you might already now this song…

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I don’t need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won’t make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I won’t ask for much this Christmas
I won’t even wish for snow
And I, I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe

I won’t make a list and send it
To the North Pole for St. Nick
I won’t even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click

Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding onto me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby, all I want for Christmas is you

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of childrens’
Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won’t you bring me
The one I really need

Won’t you please bring my baby to me, quickly
I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m asking for
I just wanna see my baby

Standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true

Baby, all I want for Christmas is you
All I want for Christmas is you, baby

Yes, it is “All I want for Christmas is You” a song by Mariah Carey – a singer and songwriter. I love listening this song when Christmas comes. Hope you like it too.

And here is my Christmas’ card that I’ve made it special for all my friends (including my family in Moonlight Mansion) who is celebrating Christmas – wherever you are right now. Merry Christmas to all of you, may be peace upon all of us.

My Christmas Card

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The Beauty Within

The outer side maybe reveal something that draws one’s interest. But a beauty within surely would attract every single awareness around. Something we just wanna hold those kind of miracles source, and never let it goes.

But there is a moment where one just can’t hold neither grasp a moment for what would be believe as a world beyond dreams. Someday one maybe shall come again, but surely not this day.

Just not today, and shall let them wait for a little longer.

Anggrek

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A Year Memoir – Sound of Ancient Tradition

Back then since I was still a crying baby who can do nothing but cries – though no much different today – I grew up in a small village, my granny house on a developing traditional village which now has turned into modern life.

We lived as much as traditional people in Bali. If you are visiting Bali, going to Kuta or Ubud, finding resorts and seeing many crafting, architectures including the mystical asta kosala kosali concepts, well…, its just not like that. Many traditional villages back then were not so different with others village in Indonesia or Shout East Asia. Some still lived inside woody wall, or wall of “gedeg” of bamboo. People still took a bath in the river or some springs that easily found back then, and drinking water from traditional wells, obviously nobody gets stomach-ache with uncooked water that days.  Only our tradition gave another colour then any other village.

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My Birthday Gift

Birthday Gift

23th December 2009 – I’m now 25 years old, instead something yet to be achieve – I would be ashamed there are still much things need to be perfected. If this feeling of being nothing worthless enough to be exist the vast of milky way – thought much people ever felt the same – I would prefer to stay in the evening breeze for a moment, and letting my own self looked very deep to the ocean of life.

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